Today, I was thinking about how many people that I know amongst my friends, have a significant other. As for myself, who is the oldest out of the group, does not. Although being single is great, I kinda feel left out here and there when it comes to having someone special like that. I means just recently, I helped one of my closest and amazing friends with relationship thing and I’m not even in one. It helped her, but it also made me feel a little lonely. When I see some of my friends holding hands, talking and getting to know their significant other, I realize why I haven’t gotten that yet. Why am I still in the single circle with the rest of single friends? But then, it hit me. I was wanting what I wanted, not what God wanted. This whole time I was complaining to myself that I was the problem for not having someone one, and guess what? I was absolutely right.
My loneliness caused me to think that I’ll never find someone or that God will never give the right person for me, thus leading me to feel envious of my friends who have those significant others. I mean I like people, but my liking for those people only for so far. Because it doesn’t help my emotions nor does it really help the other person. Again, I am back to ‘Its my problem’. God already has a plan for my life, why should I be worrying about it? Well, because I am not a perfect creature so I am going to worry that I’ll never find someone. But I shouldn’t, I really shouldn’t worry at all. That’s were this verse comes into play.
“For I know that plans I have for you, declares The Lord, plans for welfare and not evil, to give you a future and a hope.” Jeremiah 29:11
With that being said, I shouldn’t be lonely or envying my friends and their significant others. I should be happy being single, and I should be praising God for what He has brought into my life, then instead of putting it down. So, my friends can joke around that I don’t have a boyfriend, but honestly I’m kinda glad I don’t have one…because I doubt he’ll be able to handle a weirdo like myself everyday. But who knows? Only God does, and I’m glad that He has put my life together one day at a time.
I do realize that this post is rather short, but I haven’t had the time to sit a write a whole rant on this specific subject. Hopefully I got my point across with these few paragraphs and sleep deprived words. I appreciate you reading and listen to me go on and on about random things. Thank you guys! I may not blog every single day, but I have been getting it together one step at a time.