I know you’re out there

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I know you’re out there somewhere.

Where the wind meets the rain and the sun begins to shine.

When season change from winter to spring.

I know you’re out there somewhere.

Somewhere reading in a quiet little place.

Somewhere where no one can see your face.

I know you’re out there somewhere.

While the hardest parts creep around the corner.

While the light can’t shine through.

I know you’re out there somewhere.

Out there in the distance.

Or right in front of me.

There is no place you’d be

Just I know you’re out there somewhere.

You may not know when or where.

Only God knows and He’ll can show you the way.

I know you’re out there somewhere…



You don’t have the power


How did you become the fellow believer like you are now? Did you open a dusty Bible that sat on your bed for ages? Did you pray some lucid prayer at some Bible Camp? Whatever way you chose, was it the right way? You look at other Christians like you and notice one thing that bothers you: Free Will. They chose to be a Christian. Rising above the rest they accepted Christ because either someone preached some feel-good sermon or someone prayed the sinner’s prayer. But do you honestly believe that you, a depraved human being, have the power to save yourself from fire and eternal death? A simple believer who stated they believed that God is sovereign, cannot stand on stage and preach heresy to his flock saying that we have the power to save ourselves. You shake your head in utter shame as more and more people become Christians but lack the fruit there of. A simple man or woman cannot save someone just by pounding the Bible in their faces. That’s God’s choice whether He has plans to save them or not; not us. We have no power, no jurisdiction to be saving depraved humans. It must come from the heart and from God first and for most.

Mere humans do not have that power. We’re only called to be witnesses, not saviors. The whole reason Jesus died for you was to save those whom first believed not everyone. “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.” John 3:16. God had already predestined those who were going to believe in Him from the beginning of time; so how can you say we have the power and God doesn’t? You as a believer cannot stand before a group of baby Christians that we have the power to save those just like God can. Then that is just heresy. No one in the church congregation needs to hear that coming from your mouth. “For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.” Romans 3:23. Last time you checked, men and woman are all sinners as well; they’re not holy-devoted people. You don’t have the power to save or choice to become a believer.

So, when you hear people believing that God is not sovereign and He isn’t omnipotent or omnipresent, how can you look at that person and say they’re a Christian? If you stand before a church and speak about Free Will and that if you this list of things God will be proud of you, how are you, a Christian for this many years, are even a Christian? You do not have the power, only God has. No one else is higher than God. Sects of Christianity, we need to get in our heads that Free Will does not do anything. Stop thinking that depraved humans can save people, you’re only believing in what a simple man has taught you and not what it says in the Scriptures. “For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers.” Romans 8:29. Are you going to argue with God’s Word on this Free Will garbage? Huh, are you?

Hipster Christian Vs Normal Christian


I’ve come to realize that the Christians these days have been put in labels and I hate that. In the recent years, young people have become one of those labels ‘Hipster Christian’; this label goes a long ways. From mini concerts during a service, skin tight jeans, beanies etc the list goes on. The one thing out of that label of Christianity is probably the music choice and the way they worship Christ. Bethel Music, Hillsong and Young & Free are part of the Hipster Christian movement. Let’s note something here, all of these artists slash bands are cults. They don’t truly worship God nor do they focus on Christ with their music. All they do is pay their main focus on their pastor and what he tells them to do. How is that godly? I can tell you one thing, it sure isn’t in my book nor in God’s. The whole Hipster Christianity thing shouldn’t really be a thing to be honest; you can still be cool without dressing in skinny jeans, flannel and abandoning the bible while preaching to young people. My question is what is the point of being a hipster christian? How does going to a church, whether dressed in high end threads, tattoos all over your body and listen to a preacher who never opens his bible?

Let’s get one thing straight right now. I’m a ‘normal’ christian. I may dress in a all dark colors, but I don’t invoke myself with music that doesn’t fully praise God for who he truly is. But Sam, the stuff you listen to isn’t spirit filled enough? Well, the music I listen to like: Lauren Diagle, for King and Country, Veridia, and Britt Nicole are very much spirit filled. I also do not sit under a pastor who never opens his Bible to preach to his flock. My pastor is the most humbled person I know and he brings what God speaks through to the members of the church congregation. A normal christian doesn’t easily believe heresy, and take it a gospel from whoever decides to spew it from their mouth. Where is the scripture to back that up? If you make a spiritual and biblical rant there has to scripture to back whet your ranting about. So how is that a normal christian? It’s not. A normal christian studies his or her Bible and knows what it says and can defend their faith without hesitation. I, personally have seen Hipster Christians use the Bible out of context many times, and use it for some tattoo on their bodies or something to back up their garage band that they have. But the question I have is: where is the fruit?

Whether it is Normal Christians or Hipster Christians, both labels have different aspects on their own religion. One uses fancy coffee bars and pastors who preach feel good messages, while the other allows you to come to the church even if you are struggle with something. I would rather sit in a church where a pastor knows what he’s saying and the music is doctrinal and not spewing out feel good garbage, than sitting in a church where everyone just stepped out of a Pac Sun store and a Ink Shop. Being normal and a christian is probably the best option you could ever have; you shouldn’t cram other things inside that label as you grow stronger with Christ. All that does is confuse you and the others around you; do you really want that? To be a confusing Christian? In this day in age we call that a Lukewarm Christian. So it’s up to you: Hipster Christian or Normal Christian. Both are still sects of Christianity, but only one way leads you down the road to heresy.



Disconnected so far away
Ammunition the words we say
I know that we can turn this around
We should be building bridges instead of burning them down.

-Veridia, Disconnected

You’ve done it again; catching yourself thinking about how it use to be before this all happened. You spoke a lot back and forth, you sang a lot and you cared a lot. Now, now there is this wall  that blocks you from ever trying to rebuild that bridge you once had. No more weird smiles, no more music and no more friendship. So why do you keep remembering those time you were good friends, those time where a single person brought you together? The thought can’t escape your head; you want to say sorry but you’re too afraid to get rejected again. You need to leave it alone and move on with your life, you’ve done all you can there is no going over it twice. Disconnected; that’s what you are, just deal with it and move on.

Worrying about it won’t help you heal, it will only make you weak. You can try to talk to whoever it is, but will help in the end? Is that person going to shut you out or ignore you again? Why do you even care, why does it bother you so much? That person you once knew is no longer with you. You’ve may been good friends and possible more, but there’s no need to fret anymore. But you can’t escape the though and drop it for good, because that person met something to you. Is that good? Please stop torturing yourself about all of this, it won’t make a difference. Disconnected; that’s what you are, just deal with it and move on.

Now here you are, worrying about that person once again. Will they see you as that person you once were or forget everything and walk away? Why does this even matter to you, why do you care? You have no clue but the thought is still there. So, what should you do now? Should you walk away and forget all of this or finally face your fear and with deal with it? Disconnected; that’s what you are, can you you just leave it alone and move on….

A post for myself and maybe other.

You’re Not One of Us


You’re made to believe the if you pursue your greatest dreams they’ll come true. You’re made to believe that once you’ve become a Christian that nothing bad will ever happen to you, ever. You’re made to believe that once Christ enters into your life, you’re fully protected by folly and hate. For years you believed that, and now you’ve hit a place in your life that you can’t seem to climb out of. But even as you sit in such a dark hole, there is still a ‘I am a Christian’ label stuck to your body. How are you still labeled a Christian if you’re in a dark place doing dark things in your life and to others? How does anything you do or say even reflect Christ? Guess it doesn’t, I guess that means you’re not one of us.

You’ve read the Bible through in through, but never truly applied it to your life. You’ve stopped attending church and listening to your pastor. You’ve drowned out what your parents have taught you and ignore God’s. For years you have been doing this and nothing has seemed to change. So you’re stuck in the mud with no way to get out, except to cry out to the one you shut out. But He can’t hear your cries because you spent years ignoring His words. You begin to drown in the mud pit of self doubt and bitterness; all you have to do is listen to Him so He can save you. Guess that means you can’t hear, I guess that means you’re not one of us.

Enough of this bondage and self loathing. Break free from such darkness. But you can’t by yourself, that’s not how it works here. You can’t save yourself from your own sin, from your own darkness. Only He can, if you just listen to what He says. You can be one of us; the ones who bring light unto that darkness and share God’s word with one another. Stop believing that you can somehow loose your Christian label, and step away from God. You can still be one of us, you can still at least try.

“For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers. And those whom he predestined he also called, and those whom he called he also justified, and those whom he justified he also glorified.”  Romans 8:29-30

Please Understand Them

Having a mental illness is hard to control, because most of the time it controls us. You shake, worry, ponder and get physically sick over the smallest yet biggest things that tend to happen. Explaining how you react to things and how your mind works to others is hard, because they don’t quite understand them. Even the slightest misconception throws someone with a mental illness into overload and they think everyone in the world hates them even if they didn’t do anything specific. All you ask is for understanding and respect as you struggle through those illnesses. 

Please understand them. You personally may not understand them, but if you try hard enough, you can. Seeing if there is anything you can do to make something less of a punishment to them or an embarrassment; then step up and do so. A mental illness causes the person to think their not good enough for anyone, and once they have failed at something they think everyone will judge them for just that. Furthermore a mental illness makes someone self conscious about their body and how other people view them and their clothing. Please understand them. If you don’t want to take the time to care and understand someone who has a mental illness then you’re going to be a waste of time for them. 

God made all these people with mental illnesses very unique, and sometimes those people don’t value their uniqueness. But like a lot of people who struggle with these mental illnesses like: anxiety, depression, and self-conscious etc. There is always a way to face these struggles everyday; the Bible and prayer. Praying to have peace to overcome you each time you project mental struggles and reading God’s word to make you feel at ease with yourself. 

“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” James 1:1-4

“Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love Him.” James 1:12

Please understand them. You can gain great friends even if they struggle with their own mental illnesses. All you must do is ask them if their okay and if they need anything. Because you may think their okay on the outside but on the inside their screaming for help not only for you but for God as well. Healing from something like a mental illnesses may take a long time or maybe never, but if you’re there to understand and help than you can make the hurt and suffering subsides. 

“Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance.” Roman 1:1-3

Please just understand them. Please care for them. Please pray for them. Please just be friends with them. Please love them for who they are. It’ll go a long way…

Shades of grey and black

Shades of grey and black come in many different ways. They show in your clothes but also in your life. You can say you’re a joyful person, but that’s probably just a lie. Shades of grey and black pop up out of know where. Tearing down your smile and good times every which way you think. You tell yourself it’s just a phase, but is it really? Shades of grey and black cause others to look down upon you. They’ll start to think that there might be something wrong with you. You have said that it doesn’t bother you, but that honestly isn’t the truth. Shades of grey and black paint your heart in a bad light. Though it may seem bright, its really not. You’ve convinced yourself that there is nothing wrong with you, but that’s not what everyone else sees.

 These shades of grey and black come in many different ways. They appear in your struggles, they appear in your life, they appear even when your perfectly fine. These shades of grey and black shouldn’t control you, or grip your soul tightly. You should learn to let go of whatever bothers you and give it up to the one who knows everything. Those shades of grey and black aren’t in control of your life, God is. He can erase and wash those colors out, and paint you a new shade of joy.

Shades of grey and black come in different ways. No longer should they hold you, no longer should they stay. You are beautiful and worth every cent. Shades of grey and black are just colors. They do not define others. You have your own color God has painted you with. Shades of grey and black can’t affect you. Your walk with Christ is guarded by a big wall. Shades of grey and black are now just mere specks. You can forget and forgive it. Shades and grey and black no longer exist. Thanks be to Our God, for giving us a great gift. We’re no longer slaves to fear, because we are the children of the God Almighty.