Unbalanced

“A false balance is an abomination to the Lord, but a just weight is his delight.” Proverbs 11:1 (ESV)

A home shouldn’t feel uneasy to reside in; no egg shells to crack and no stomach churned. The Holy Spirit should live in our dwellings, and provide a sense of comfort and peace among us. Yet, when darkness prevails and we allow it inside those doors, that peace becomes unbalanced and broken.

The Bible talks about how one must manage their homes, and how The Lord doesn’t allow unjust acts to continue. But unfortunately, sinners really love to sin; so much so it destroys other people that live in the home. If you were hoping for distrust, anger, confusion and uneasiness; you have achieved it. A sick feeling that is at the pit of our stomach; a facade, someone who is trying to hide it. Unbalanced.

The Lord is our just weight; the one who keeps us righteous and pure in situations that are dreary. He keeps us balanced and on track; the good to weigh out the bad. But that scripture that I used doesn’t just refer to our walk with The Lord, but also how our homes are run and look like from within.

You see caring about outward appearances when something goes wrong in our lives only leads to building a personal idol and pride. The care for wanting to be perceived as everything is fine, when in reality: nothing is ever fine at all. Trying to hide a sin because it was so embarrassing and heinous, only leads to an unbalanced home. Distrust grows from such idolatry of being perceived as happy and fake.

Being unbalanced not only at home, but in your own walk causes sin to seep through the cracks and infiltrate others from within. This allows others to sin alongside you and create more distrust, uneasiness and darkness. The Lord looks down upon those who create sin along with the sinner…

“No ill befalls the righteous, but the wicked are filled with trouble.” Proverbs 12:21 (ESV)

A home is supposed to be a safe place to be, not a place to escape from any chance you have. It’s a place of warmth, happiness and peace; but it turned into an unbalanced weight from unjust acts. How can you enter the Kingdom of Heaven and explain to God why your home is unbalanced? Will you lie or simply fake it til you make it?

That sick feeling you may feel comes from playing the part of the sinners; ones who allow it to happen and allow it to crush those around you; becoming unbalanced in a lot of ways. You might laugh to yourself thinking that it’s not true and you had no part in such a thing, but in all fairness… It was you this entire time.

“Yeah, I’ma just ignore you, walking towards you
With my head down, lookin’ at the ground, I’m embarrassed for you
Paranoia, what did I do wrong this time? That’s parents for you
Very loyal? Shoulda had my back but you put a knife in it
My hands are full, what else should I carry for you?
I cared for you…” -NF, Let You Down

Saying ‘I’m sorry’ won’t fix anything unless the change you make is true and not fake. Doing odd things out of practice will only create more unbalance and distaste, but at least you’re happy, right? What about the others? Talk to them, like actually talk to them. What are they going to say to you? Perhaps truth that comes from reading Scripture or perhaps pure unadulterated pain after not sleep.

Whatever unbalanced home you reside in, remember that despite what the sinners have done; it’s not your fault. If the ones who created the unbalance wish to make it worse, then allow them to do so. You already voiced your issues… They don’t seem to really care, unless they put up a facade to do so.

Sinners are blinded by their sin, and firmly believe they’ve truly done no wrong in their eyes. Maybe they should look inside their home… The people that cared about them, are slowly not wanting anything to do with them and coming to terms with their thoughts. Distrust, uneasiness, lies, and darkness really crushes that sole of a believer who is just trying to survive…

Do you see them? The ones you’ve hurt… The ones who disappear when you are around… What is that called?

Unbalanced.

Corem Deo