This post goes along with Unbalanced. So read that first before reading this one.
Paranoia brings out the worst in people. Not only does it destroy relationships, but it eventually will destroy you from the inside out. Whether that paranoia comes from guilt, secret sin or trauma, it shouldn’t be rewarded due to our own personal fears we keep close to our hearts. Why? Because sin isn’t something that we just lift up a rug and sweep under; it’s not to be forgotten. Yet here we are; allowing a sin to continue when it could’ve stopped a long time ago. But since it was rewarded with good things out of our own paranoia, it still remains.
If someone close to you repeated an offense, why should they get the god treatment? Why do they need to be reminded of the person they offended daily out of fear and paranoia? History shows they’ll just do it again, yet it was swept under a rug. Sin shouldn’t be left to fester and destroy relationships; it should’ve been dealt with the first time you caught it. So, why is it being rewarded just for it to happen over and over? You don’t know? Perhaps the false perception you have about this is blinding you. Perhaps, you need to be in more prayer and devotion with God to understand what you did was very very wrong.
The Bible talks about handling sin against one another very clearly in Matthew 18, but when we talk about doing such things, we never actually put it to good use. Instead, the sin and darkness festers and slowly eats away at the very core of the home you live in. How is that right in the eyes of The Lord? How is that right in the eyes of the pastor and the church leadership? From what can be seen, it’s practically a lie and spit in the face of God. Don’t preach what you simply cannot do.
Pride allows us to do some sinful things; whether it’s covering up a sin or allowing it, it still destroys people’s trust in you. Distrust causes more issues than you’d know and the people around will slowly disappear from your life one by one. That openness and grace you once installed in the home, will soon dissolve into egg shells and fear. Don’t believe these words? Ask the others what they think and feel then? Or is that paranoia and pride too? See what happens when you reward a sin, it causes uneasiness inside you as well; its called: guilt.
If a sin against a loved one was repeated, why continue on like it’ll never happen again? Giving off the visual perception that everything is healthy and fine; when in reality it’s not. Putting up some facade among the people in the home so they can’t worry, isn’t going to help you and your soul. It only causes those around you to not trust you more. Why? That’s a conversation between you and God; something that should’ve been happening when this whole thing began…
Years can escape us when we allow and reward a sin that causes our heart and mind to decay. Ripping away the true person you were before this all began, and sprouting a shadow of anger and deceit. It’s hard to determine who is who, when the real person no longer exists because of something they allowed to happen in the first place. Pretty harsh, huh? Well with all things considered, it’s practically true.
You can see a lot of things when you are standing from a distance; fear, pain, discomfort and yet… it goes under the radar. Why? Guilt maybe… Who knows anymore because it all looks the same now. Sin isn’t something that needs a pedestal to have because it’s embarrassing or heinous. It shouldn’t be dealt with and cut off, not create a Hydra of more sin.
Lies brings distrust, which in turns being paranoia and then fear. That doesnt look good on those who you live with on a constant basis. It only invokes anger and eventually they’ll learn to not talk to you anymore. But guilt controls our motives to the point of non-habitual actions and demeanor change; something others are aware of and know that it’s fake.
But sin is fine, right? Living in sin that was created and allowed is okay? Causing it to rip off the edges of a home built on statues, morals and beliefs. That sounds like a white washed tomb… Someone who claims what they preach, but doesn’t actually do it.
Hypocrisy.
Lies.
Guilt.
Rewarding of Sin.
Anger.
Hurt.
Distrust.
Darkness upon the home… a safe place for all of us… a place where we enjoyed to be… now destroyed by sin from years and years…
No one is happy, no believes you. An act is only an act until is seen through…
✨Corem Deo✨
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