To the Guys {Men}

Listen gentlemen, and listen well. I don’t like fakers. Guys who act all nice and sweet to you, then turn against you with a flip of a coin. I would like a guy who is respectful, willing to listen to me, a Christian and loves my family. I’m done with guys disappearing on me, and lying to me. I’m done trying to put myself out there but getting nothing but creepy men who only want young woman as objects. God didn’t prepare my heart for the creepy ones, He prepared me for the faithful ones.

Though I work in a place where there are creepy men, but every once in a while I get half decent men that are kind, gentle and somewhat trustworthy. But then again, those men can turn out to be creepy too. So, to the men out there, stop being a creeper! Women of God don’t want men hitting on them because of what they look like; you should be hitting on them because of their passion for Christ and His church. Trust me it makes a difference when you’re a real believer in Christ and find a nice girl you want to start a relationship with. Because being fake doesn’t get you anywhere, it only gets your phone number deleted and blocked forever.

In future, if you approach me, and are not ready to start a courtship (not dating), meet my family, walk with Christ, and follow the rules; then, think twice before asking for my number or asking me out. Because my father watches over me and guess what? He has a gun, an alibi and pigs that he isn’t afraid to use on any guy wanting to poach on his daughter.


Get it off my chest

I’m not beautiful

I’m not strong

I’m not amazing

I’m not always sure

Then there was you

A man above it all

You died for me

Save me from my pain

A victim of heresy

But you showed them The Way

I grew up clinging to your words

Voicing them like a song bird

Now I am strong

Now I am beautiful

Now I am amazing

Still not always sure

Get this off my chest

Project it to the lost

God’s grace save us

Not works at all

No more scratching to save it all

No more death to end it all

A cross rose from Golgotha

You just need to learn to crawl

Get this off my chest

Project it to the lost

God’s grace save us

Not works at all

Now I am beautiful

Now I am strong

Now I am amazing

But still not sure

Does He still love me

While I suffer and die

Even in the valley of the shadow

Death cannot take me

He leads us not into temptation

He gathers up our fears

Nails them to the cross

And brings us to tears

Get this off my chest

Project it to the lost

God’s grace save us

Not works at all

Now I am beautiful

Now I am strong

Now I am amazing

God has made me sure enough.

Love is Hard to Obtain


Love is hard to obtain, whether its through friendship or through a future spouse. No sheer amount of healing can help you with that. From time to time, real love shows up in that strangest ways and the strangest of people. But its God that shows you who or what they truly are.

Love is hard to obtain. Whether it’s overnight or not, you can never understand how someone can love you forever. But it happens anyways because it’s God’s will. Prayer is the best way to receive such a thing that’s invisible to see.

Love is hard to obtain. There are people out there that have never experienced such a thing, and there are people who have. Not all will love you for you and not all will care. But God does all the time.

Love is hard to obtain. When people are broken and refuse to reach out, they lost all hope for themselves. No passion is there, no love exists. Its just a dark cloud covering the abyss.

Love is hard to obtain. Though you feel alone, trapped in a corner. There are people out there that will truly love you. Open up, get to know them. Love them and pray with them.

Love is never hard to obtain. Without faith in God, love is hard, but with God all things are possible. No struggling to love people, no eagerness to reach out. Just an eased mind, that is ready to jump out.

Forget the urge to love that special someone this holiday or any day for that matter, how about loving the ones you’d never thought you’d love before. The people sitting right next to you, or the people in the store or work. Blocking them out and giving up, won’t help you obtain love. Its never hard to obtain it, just look at God’s Son.

 “Teacher, which is the great commandment in the Law?”  And he said to him, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.  This is the great and first commandment.  And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself.” Matthew 22:36-39

Rely on God

There’s that frown again, covering up the hurt inside. There’s no joy, no drive to fight. You’re sad, broken and depressed. That special moment in time slipped through your hands like sand. Now it’s just you and your hurt. Why dwell on such anxiety? Such depression that aches your heart? The agony one faces only grows and hurts worse as time goes on. Whilst the pain, the depression and anger that hangs over you like a rain cloud; Christ jumps in and wipes that all away. He replaces your joyless life, with a delight for Him, a thirst you’ve been needing to run to from the hurt. Reach out, grab the Lord’s hand, be secure in His arms and His word; that’s where you’re safest at. Life is tough, but so are you. Trials are there for us to pull through; then, rely on God.

Many hurt, many want to run, many want to hide it and move on. But how does that help you in the end? Do you sleep better at night, do you treat others right? How do you live with that? You can’t that’s the point. Once the hurt is done, there is no more joy, and you dwell on it for eternity. It doesn’t help, it doesn’t work, you get stuck in this routine where everything is the worst. God is there, He fights your battles. He raises you up on the wings of eagles, while the hurt finally dissipates. No more drama, depression and anxiety. Just Lord and you, no more fighting. Whatever you’re going through, whatever happens, don’t rely on yourself to fix it.

Its all the things, whether the bad or good that’s what helps us draw near to God, and fall on our faces. Stop relying on yourself and what others can do; start relying on what God can do. Have that hurt healed and the thirst quenched. Open up more, and let people in. No more silence, but more words. Welcome back healing from the one who truly cares.

For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. Romans 8:21

Don’t play hide and seek

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:6-7

You hide in a chasm, an abyss created by yourself. A place of utter darkness where no one could ever find you. You build up these walls and retain yourself from telling the ones who truly care about, about what is going on in your life. How can you be found? By staying in the chasm you created? By refusing to tell the ones around how you’re hurting? No. You break down the walls you’ve built up for years, and step into the light and tell them what is going on. Don’t jut give them a short description, tell them the whole story, so they can pray for you, care for you and understand. Don’t play hide and seek, don’t lock yourself away from everyone because you’re hurt from other people. God has found you in the chasm, the abyss you created, and He is reaching out with a wide open hand. Picking you up from the darkness, the security you’ve built up. He wants you to let go, to move on and enclose yourself with other Christians. Not play hide and seek all your life, until it eats you inside.

Look around you, others hide as well, not just you. Cryptic words, fake smile and silence doesn’t heal a hurting heart. All it does is darkens it and crushes it to billions of pieces. If you’re hurting, cling to the Cross. If you’re angry, cling to the Cross. If you’re sick, cling to the Cross. Enough of the outbursts, the rudeness and the fake life. It’s better not to grieve alone but grieve in Christ. Don’t play hide and seek, don’t trap yourself in the chasm of hurt and depression; because soon it’ll come out in how you speak and act towards others. How does one defeat this darkness that lures us into curling up in a ball? How can you fight it off? Not on your own, but with God and other believers that are close to you. You can’t fight this battle alone, you can’t win this on your own. Hiding can’t save you, only kneeling before God Almighty can save you from you.

Life sucks sometimes; it can even cripple us to a point where we want to be done with it all. But, that’s not our plan, that’s not what God wants for us. True, one bad thing happens after another, but why run and hide? Playing hide and seek only makes you feel like you can hide forever than being found at the end of the game. Instead of someone else winning after finding you, God wins in the end. So, are you going to continue to hide, or is God going to come find you? You need healing, so don’t play hide and seek.

Suffering has nothing to with sin

Tired, depressed, stressed, sad and angry. Its all points of suffering. Whatever the time, whatever the day; there will always be suffering through the pain. But why the suffering, why the pain? Did you do something wrong, is God punishing me? Suffering is hard, trust me I know. You wonder what is going on and why it’s happening to you. Your suffering has nothing to do with sin. Its to help you draw closer and closer to Him. Open the Bible, read it aloud. Know that its for you, and everyone else. Suffering has nothing to do with sin. Sometimes its because you gave up on Him. Look to the sky, then take a knee. Pray to the Father when you’re in need. 

So why the suffering, why the pain? Why do friends seem to run away; why do people go through life? Its because God has plan for it; its just all blank. We can’t see it, we don’t know. We just go through themotions in hopes we grow. Suffering has nothing to do with sin. Its there for God to win us again. No more doubt and fear; just God standing there. Suffering is hard, dangerous sometimes. But there is a plan, a time, a day; where God can take away the suffering. Its not up to us, or anyone else; its God’s grace that can ease our souls. Suffering has nothing to do with sin or perhaps it does. All it takes is a Job like faith, a strong will to know that its God’s true will.

So no more suffering, no more pain. No more friends running away, no more sleepless nights. God has a plan for us, through it all. Just sometimes were not know it alls.

You’re not alone

You block it out, the people, the ambience, the light. All you have is the dark, and no joy inside. Where did that smile go? Where did that fighter go? Don’t trap that person inside because youcannot defend   yourself no more. God put this in your life to crawl to Him. Crawl back to the light, to the Word; don’t blur it. Show those who you love how strong you can be. Show them you’re not alone. Show them how you can fight.

The ambience is not your friend and neither is the darkness. Break the glass of depression and sadness. There is light behind those curtains, rain that grows joy. Don’t fight alone, because you’re not alone in this. A robot is not who you are, so don’t shut down. Ignite your soul with God’s consuming fire and live on. Look to the cross, the man that brough you here. He can fight your battles, because you’re not alone. Not this time, not anymore.

Bring back that smile, that disposition of hope. Being back that fighter, that joy once more. Look past the broken glass and bloody scars, you’re not alone anymore. Remember who is with you, remember who cares. Its your friends, your family and God who is there. Take off the sadness, quit relying on the ambience.Those things  cannot save you, from the fight you cannot win. Grab ahold onto Christ, reach up from the ground. Never let go, never fall back down.