“Carter, I haven’t had coffee yet…”

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Things happen. It can be good, bad and a whole lot of ugly. This week started off bad and then drifted off to the worst week ever for me. Now, most people know what week this is but to others who don’t know me, this week was the Butler County Fair. Every year 4H kids take projects and then show them off at the fair, then they’ll get ribbons for their projects. But unfortunately for me, showing has been more negativity than actual showing. I’ve been ratted on by people, dehydrated, overly tired and sick of people. So, basically my week at the fair has been ruined by others that I’ll not name. I did place in things, but it was the negativity that ended up getting to me at the end of each day at fair. I was this close and dropping everything I’ve done over my last year and forgetting it all, but then I remembered: God is bigger than anything I have done.

With all this stuff I’ve dealt with during this current week, I completely forgot about God and my walk with Him. My worry that’ll be in the worst mood throughout the week clouded my faith and the hope I once carried before this whole week started off. Now, now I’m a pile of hurt and anger from all this negativity and I just want to hide away from these hurtful people. But you know what? Why should I hide, when God has my back and I have a family and great friends to kick those hurtful people to the curb. I’m not a superhero, and neither are my family or friends, but God is and He has been there for me. I’m glad I haven’t given up on myself or on my fair week because if I did, then I would’ve allowed those people to win me over and I wasn’t going to allow that.

I can do all things through him who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13

But Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.”  Matthew 19:26

With that being said, I am doing okay, just kinda sick of people and not wanting to hang at the fair because of certain people. So, I’d you don’t hear from or see me, then that’s why. But, please, if you get a chance to go the the fair, Josh is there and so are our goats. See ya later, guys and thanks for reading.

Quote is from SG-1.

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The Past Comes Upon Us

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My past has recently filled my mind, and I’ve remembered the things I’ve done that were totally stupid. I regret the mistakes I’ve made, and how foolish those mistakes were but still I go back to those mistakes and think: I could’ve changed that. The thought of wanting to change the mistakes I’ve made and the friends I lost to those mistakes is hard to grasp, even for myself. The reason my past keeps coming back, and the thoughts of those mistakes keep arising are because of many different people I use to know continue returning into my life. It feels weird that my past and past people have returned and all I want to do is throw it away like paper. But I found that closure and forgiveness is the best option to silence these past mistakes that keep arising. So the thought of ‘I could’ve changed that’ may come and go, but when the moment comes and when I see someone from my past, I’ll just talk to them and ask for forgiveness.

Alas due to certain mistakes, my ‘asking for forgiveness’ hasn’t really ceased a problem that continues to hit me in the face. Thus I began to hold a large grudge against whoever hasn’t accepted my forgiveness. Which brings me back to my past and the mistakes I’ve made that can’t seem to leave me, even if I’ve asked God for forgiveness and repented from those sins and mistakes. So, its all up to the person I’ve wronged and hoping that they’ll one day realize I’ve sinned and ruined them. As for me, I’m learning to release this grudge I hold against that person and a certain building down the road from me. My past was ugly in my youth, although it may not as been as ugly as most teenagers, it was ugly in a way that I was a foolish idiot with no mind. The fact is; I was a sinner. I have sinned and still do from time to time. These past mistakes keep me from doing it again; at least I hope so.

The past can haunt us, and it can sometimes come upon us like a wave. Like when we remember how stupid we acted last week or how mean you were to your previous friend several years ago. Whatever it maybe, we can’t seem to forget it, thus why we say ‘Its like I’m living in the past.’ It’s a good thing we have Christ, because if we didn’t, then we would’ve kept involving ourselves into the things we had did in the past, then we’d would drift away from Christ. So, long story short, our past is what makes us who we are, it defines us and the personality we build up over the years.

As I get older, I try to focus on my future than my past, but like I said before, I’ve held a grudge against some people. Which in the end has made me bitter, hurt and very hard to trust people with my words. But, I’m gradually learning that Christ has got my back and that remembering my past shouldn’t bother me. Although…it will bother me, because that’s my personality; I’m just gonna have to learn to deal with it.

“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
Matthew 6:34

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Goodnight guys, and sleep tight!

“I’m your land lady, not a plot device!”

Woo hoo, I’ve made it half way through July without dying! I’m kidding, I won’t die anytime soon, no matter what illness I have. Besides my on coming illness that I required, I have done lots of other things throughout this summer. Today, I shall tell them to you while I have the time right now.

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~~~ I’ve started watching Daredevil (TV show)
~~~ Still watching Naruto
~~~ Fair is coming up quick
~~~ Went to Kings Island with all my friends
~~~ Sherlock is back!!
~~~ Comic Con…
~~~ Rocking to my tunes
~~~ Naruto marathon
~~~ Wearing black 🙂
~~~ Writing a new fanfiction
~~~ Having a huge game night tomorrow…
~~~ Owl City’s new album
~~~ Watching Blimey Cow with my brothers
~~~ Bisque (Only those who know this will get it lol!)
~~~ Fair Queen interview was this week
~~~ New kittens…yay…
~~~ Feeling under the weather
~~~ Missing past friends
~~~ Summer cleaning my room
~~~ Country music ~~~ My dad got me Josh Harris’ newest book!


~~~ Rain


~~~ Writing

Now I have something to share from my best friend Olivia. Although it has been awhile since she write this, I wanted to share it from the copy I have.

When I met her, I knew she was a different religion. This made me figure that she wouldn’t be able to grasp my beliefs and religion. I thought the only thing we we’d ever be able to talk about would be trivial things, like TV shows and fandoms. That’s the way is had been with my other friends, even when they were of the same religion. Most of the time, when God or religion comes from my mouth when talking to people my own age (or around that), they squirm uncomfortably and I must quickly change the subject. I assumed the she was no expectation. So, when I first opened up to her, I stopped repeatedly, and apologized profusely. I figured she would stop me, but she wanted to hear it. She seemed genuinely interested in what I had to say. Even more, when I begin trying to explain my beliefs to her, she stops !e and finishes for me. I can have a deep conversation with her without worrying about her not understanding or being uncomfortable. She lives in reality, and often tries to give me advice if I’m struggling with something. She doesn’t care if my religion beliefs are different from hers. She respects them. It makes me overjoyed, and, at the same time, sad that others are not like her. I am sad my previous friends weren’t true. She cares for me as a person. She cares for me as family, and I feel comfortable enough to care back. I know that she would never abandon or rebuke me for that.

Those were words from my very best friend Olivia and all that she said was true! I’m always by this girl’s side no matter what, same goes for Elizabeth too! Have a great weekend guys!

Quote is from the new Sherlock Special trailer from Comic Con.

Caring is Hard

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Caring for others without them knowing is rather awkward. Not because you’re caring, but is that the person you’re caring for doesn’t know it and you have no way into tell them without sounding awkward. The reason I am bringing this up is because of a teenage boy at my church who I desperately care for on a Christ-like level. Now this boy is very quiet and doesn’t really open up to people due to problems that I am not mentioning. But even though throughout his pain, I have opened myself up to care for him and his emotions. I may not know this boy very well or not at all, I am still going to pray and care for him.

He may not know that I care for him, but its the least that I can do and it’s the Christ-like thing to do. Im not a huge caring person, but I relate to this boy on a mental and emotional level, although my life isn’t as bad as his, I  am willing to stick up for him. Pastor Wade, has given my some advice as to how I should go about this situation, and I am glad he and also my parents are willing to step up and help me out. Caring for someone is hard and even harder if you don’t know the person by heart; that’s why prayer is the best way to go about caring for a unknown person.

This boy may not know it yet, but God is working in his life and its up to people like myself and those in the church to encourage his walk. I am glad God has given me someone to look out for without the person knowing it. Encouragement without knowing, thats the way I like it. I want those who have trouble caring, take the initiative to care for those who need caring for and encourage their walk with Christ a little everyday without them knowing it. It pleases you and it makes God smile if you do.

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“Do you know what you’re doing?” “Of course. I’ve punched Hitler, 500 times.”

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As we step into the beginning of July, and say farewell to June. We can say that summer is almost behind us, and Fall is creeping around the corner. But as of today, we are here to celebrate our independence from Britain and enjoy our time together with family and friends. Despite the horrible things going on in this country, we as Americans can still celebrate our greatest victory and enjoy the home of the free, and land of the brave. That may sound cliche, but being part of America isn’t something we should feel ashamed about, and burning flags or wearing them as capes isn’t gonna make you like America any less than shooting someone because you hate them. Our freedom is important, and treating it with integrity should be our top priority, no matter the cost.

Yes the government legalized same-sex marriage, but just that because one thing happened, doesn’t mean our hope for humanity is gone. Cause, while those things happen, we have Christ to back us up and keep us from wanting to blow up and telling us that our home; America, still has a chance at being the home of the free. God is our leader and we should put our trust in Him when the U.S falls apart, and we should pray for our leaders to find you as well.

So, in the midst of all the insanity and stupidity in this world, we can still sit back and call America home and celebrate our freedom. In God We Trust, in Him We must Succeed. The President may suck, but God has better plans and its up to us to keep our hopes high and our prayers higher for this country.

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Happy 4th of July my fellow Americans! God Bless you and your family! Also, Happy Birthday to Captain America aka Steve Rogers! He maybe fictional, but he stands for this country like anyone else would, and for our troops and officers: Thank you for your service!!! Keep fighting and keep protecting 🙂

Quote is from Captain America: The First Avenger.